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Friday, January 04, 2002
oh yeah, i am so totally awake right now. actually, the bitter cold and the loud snapping of the cocker spaniel wake one up decently enough. no, that's a lie. i'm fucking tired. Thursday, January 03, 2002
yay! i'm watching a different episode now, and mel and lindsay are doing /just fine/. really, really fine, actually. well, hot lesbian sex would be the term, i suppose...
what is going on? this is an early episode, because brian's still being the father and stuff. but it says emmet is starting to go to "conversion therapy". i get so confused about the sequencing.
yeah, mememe, i kinda thought about that. i tried a few times, but you need a code, and i don't know who has any available. it's fine, though. i'm over the feeling. now i'm just anxious about this trip.
but before i go, i just had a funny thought. i don't have a livejournal. so i'm no one's friend. *small giggle*
i miss my friends. i really, really do. and i feel something has passed that will never come back. and in some ways, it's so obvious that it never will. time passes, that's a fact. we can't go back to how things used to be. but then there's little things. everyone switching from bloggers to livejournals, for instance. since i don't have one, i can't read friends only entrees, and i miss out. so that part of my life has changed. i know that that's a little thing, and it's really stupid, but that's just an example. i have this aching fear i'm missing so much, that huge things are happening to the people closest to me, and i'm not there, and i'm not going to find out, or be told, and i'm just not going to know. and i feel like things are spreading apart, moving away, and i really can't explain it but i'm so very scared, all of a sudden. i wish i knew what was happening in your lives. i really do, and i feel, i mean, it seems to me that i'm just not there, like i'm missing it all. i don't know how to explain it. just come back, please...
tonight, i go to my dad's house. there, i plan to sit around for a while, maybe read, go online, generally be a little bored but bearably so. then, though not as early as my father hopes, i plan to go to sleep to awake tomorrow morning, ready to be in the car by 4 AM. so how many of you are jealous of me?? :) it should be fun. Wednesday, January 02, 2002
hmph. i'm a mess. but for the moment, i'm a happy mess. i like people, mostly. oh, and be happy for me, y'all.
i had another great night last night. and then driving home from the mall, listening to music and their stories, it was great. infinite, eh? and hearing maggie harmonize to those songs is so incredible. i love good people. and hearing about college, and learning and knowing stuff. observing, perhaps, and it's just nice. Tuesday, January 01, 2002
plBashana haba'a, neshev al hamirpeset venispor tziporim nodedot. Yeladim, bekhoufsha, yesakhakhu tofeset beyn habayit, oulebeyn hasadot. Od tire, od tire, kama tov yihye, bashana, bashana haba'a Anavim adumim, yavshilu ad ha'erev veyugshu tzonenim lashulkhan. Verukhot redumim, yis'u el em haderekh itonim yeshanim ve'anan. Od tire, od tire, kama tov yihye, bashana, bashana haba'a Bashana haba'a, nifros kapot yadayim, mul ha'or hanigar halavan. Anafa levana, tifros ba'or knafayim vehashemesh tizrakh betokhan. Od tire, od tire, kama tov yihye, bashana, bashana haba'a Soon the day will arive, when we will be together there's another verse, too, but i don't remember it much. soon the torch will be passed, something about hope and not in sorrow, la la la. anyone help me out? Monday, December 31, 2001
i've been on a kick of isreali music for a while, since i made a cd of songs not in english, and i found i couldn't put my version of Zodiak on cd, which makes me very sad, because me, alana, and roach would look much cooler dancing to it if we actually had music. i'm downloading Turkish Kiss at the moment, which is always fun, though i can't remember anything more than the chorus thing, and that's with alana's help. come to think of it, i bet few people other than alana have any idea what i'm talking about. i'm also downloading Bashana Haba-a, but i can't tell yet if it has words, and i would be greatly saddened if it didn't. yay hebrew!
raya and zoe and many others, probably, also wrote great new years resolutions. i'm just slow, i guess.
esther made such an extensive list, of really good resolutions. and i hardly ever make any, other than normal silly ones like lose weight and stop biting my nails (hey, which i pretty much did, nice), but this year, at MI i thought of a few, so i'll write them down here, at least. there are probably more, but this is for now, and this is for ones i will share. - to not screw up relationships like i have in the past Take the Which Empire Records Character are You? Quiz. he's my favorite, anyway. he's so cute and romanticy and stuff. yay!
i lied. the marathon is not today, it is tomorrow. or some other day. :) weird. i just got all the mail that's been here at my mom's this week, and i got a few christmas cards, of course, from my step-grandmother and aunts and things. and i got one from my therapist. from, what, two years ago? i'm still on some random list of all his patients, i'm sure, because it's doubtful he remembers much about me at all. i only went three times, and barely said much to him about who i was. how weird. and now my kitty just jumped onto my lap after a long, passionate battle with the blanket on my bed, which unfortunately i don't believe he won. but Peachy wins the cuteness test, so it's ok.
last night was really fun. minus the ten minutes or so after i got out of the hottub, it was great. the people were fabulous, the times were good, i even made a good joke. we played sexual trivia. actually, we didn't really play, we just asked each other all the questions from the sex manual, and looked at her old yearbook which she decorated with a million pictures of a million people. there's so much history there, so many funny scandals and things (and so many of them have malcolm somewhere in there). and it wasn't even a majority of hami people. so many of my other favorite people were there, ex-marlborough girls, ex-loyola boys, other random boys who were almost as fun. even a boy my age, who i had met before, a great guy who tells a fabulous starfish joke. :) (who used to date, or maybe still is dating, a girl i know named caitlin) M: Did you bring something to swim in? *giggles* it was fun. pity more people weren't there, but oh well. maybe next time. now i'm off, to watch a bit of the all day long Whose Line Is It Anyway marathon. what could be greater? well, a few things, but maybe i'll do those later today. :) Sunday, December 30, 2001
"Can you move?" "Move? You're alive. If you want, I can fly." ~ Princess Bride a strange side note. i was watching that, and i changed the channel to Little Shop of Horrors. know what? Christopher Guest is in that, too. He's the reporter who first notices Audrey II. weird, huh? Thank you, Blogger.
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